Once Again

I tried to be honest, for most of my life
Then found myself lying, to my daughter and wife
Once I started drinking, It only got worse
There were even a few times, I stole cash from her purse
So many responsibilities, I soon fell behind
Saturated by booze, I was losing my mind
For all my education, this one had me beat
Finally threw in the towel, I accepted defeat
I sought help for myself, not sure if I could
For all my deceptions, I deserved where I stood
A little more honest with, myself and with all
I'm avoiding those triggers, I'd look for to fall
I'm learning to like myself once again
And in finding myself, I can be a true friend
So here I go again, round one hundred and two
This time I am thinking, I know I will make it through
For those I love dearly, I just thank you all
For never abandoning me, those times I would fall

Ricky Z for Me

Why Now

This blog was first started two years ago in conjunction with my business. But as one can see from looking at its history, not much was done with it. Now, inspired by my daughter, I've changed it's name and it's focus to more personal observations. With what that I am now in recovery and rehabilitation, I am sure much of it will focus on my journey back and beyond. It will also consist of replies to my daughter as well as observations to and for her. The name of the blog is inspired by my poet friend Rick as is the description, so aptly written in his very characteristic poetry.